oh my gawd.... I logged in the net cafe I'm in now at 5:30pm... and now's what.... 11:15pm.... hehehehehe... reading manga can really make one hooked!! hehehehehe..... sadly, I'm having lapses of vertigo... my head starts to hurt and I get dizzy for a while.. hehehehe.. but I'm still reading~ I'm currently downloading another chapter actually and it's at 94%... no 96%!! ahahahahahaha~~ it's finished!! yoooooooooooooosh~ back to reading!

really. I'll die if this goes on. I wasn't even planning on getting online. la lang. super uber boredom. I need entertainment. DESPERATELY. grabeeeeeeh...... at sumabay pa ang init. SUPER INIT!! damn it. damn summer. >___< sana di na lang ako nag-summer... kaso enjoy nman sa class kaso afterwards.... boredom. tapos stuck ako dito sa LB. walang cable. walang aircon. walang animax. sakit na ng katawan ko. basta.... so bored nakakaiyak. >.< yun lang.

hehehhehehe~ summer na bukas!!! di ko na to kaya.. 7-8am class AGAIN!?! sagad absences ko dun sa 7-8 class ko last sem... tapos ngayon monday to saturday!!! my gawd! >.< kakayanin ko kaya to? parang ayoko mag-summer.... kaso bayad at enrolled na ko e... >.< a total of 1890php. iyaaaaaa~ I wanna watch more animax!! bitin ako sa getbackers!!! may class na bukas!!!! NOOOOOO~

I'm bored again. wahehehe~ nothing to do since it's vacation time... I guess I should just relax and watch the clouds hehehe.. like shikamaru! yeah! but I'm itching to get new chapters of Naruto and Hunter X Hunter!! >.< need to stay up to download.... >.< ehehehehehe~

I just came from my visit to chee's house... it was soo pink! and berns' was soo yellow!! what a nice combination.... anyways, we watched PoT [yeeeeeah! at last~ didn't get to see much of kikumaru tho...] an episode of: one piece [kawaii luffy~], dear boys and hikago.

anyways, chee has a new obsession now, kamui. hehehehe~ I like kamui as well, but I cannot even compare to how she likes kamui. she explained to me why and how silly X's plot is, and I was completely amazed... I mean, I liked X and it's plot was kinda good to me, but when I heard her explanation, I couldn't disagree. She even told me how silly Subaru is [and he's my fave character] and I couldn't disagree either.

I dunno what came over me. I guess I couldn't find a good retort to whatever she was saying, or I just didn't want to disagree because I didn't want to anger her. or maybe I was just afraid to take the risk, to stand up for what I like.. or maybe, I like things for too shallow a reason. or maybe I didn't want to fight a losing battle. suddenly, "liking beyond reason" became something so false to me.

the meaning for liking something changed for me. liking something meant that you'd stand up for it, and risk the chance of being hated by people who hate what you like. To know WHY you like it, and stand up for why you do... you'd have to analyze it, know it inside out, look into every little detail of it.

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but then, are things divided into the things you like and the things you hate? honestly, I don't hate anything. I may see the bad points of something and also I see the good points. so if the bad points overweigh the good ones, you'd have to hate it and throw away the fact that it was still good at some points?

I don't believe that there is something that is absolutely bad or absolutely good. maybe that's why I can't love or hate something absolutely. or maybe I'm just still a coward to take that step. maybe I do that so that I wouldn't have to make a stand, and just be in between... play safe. I'm such a coward. it sucks. I wanna be like chee, and people who stand up for what they like, or don't like, those who like something not because of shallow reasons... but now, I'm still here, in the middle, playing safe.

sesu~

as I said in my last post, some old friends suddenly popped out from nowhere and texted. hehehehe~ I called berns yesterday~ we had an uber long conversation that lasted until nighttime ^^;; aaaaah~ how nostalgic. even when we still met alot, our phone conversations were always long. We'd say 'kain muna tayo [let's stop first and eat]' then she'd agree but then we'd open up a new topic and the conversation would go on and on again~ ^___^ I miss those days~~ *sigh*... *genki mode* That's why I'm going to her place [and chee's too~] this friday!!! wuahahahahaa!!! ^__^ I can't wait!!! >.< I hope no exams would be scheduled at that day ne... >.<

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yesterday morning, I was planning to go to sleep then suddenly, cyen [she's my housemate,too] pops up [in chat]! she talked to me about things [confidential] [lemme just say that some things are easier to say when you're chatting.] and I helped her [tried anyways] to straighten things up. I hope everything goes fine, cyen~ ^__^
and after that, ain suddenly comes in. >.< I guess it was a lucky thing that I didn't yet go to bed at that time. we had such a long conversation.. [i dunno if it beats my conversation with berns tho... ^^;;] bonding bonding~ we discovered we had a lot of things in common that we didn't know about ... it was fun~ it's always nice to know more about friends... ^_^

sesu~

tomodachi ii yo ne~ [so nice to have friends...] and it seems that more and more people are becoming my friends, thanks to certain things that have happened. let me enumerate.

ever since I went to college: this is when I got to know so many people, mainly because when I enrolled in UPLB, I didn't know anybody. I became very social then, met new people, blocmates, roommates, classmates and the best of all, RD. RD - Radical Dreamers [we've been wanting to change the name... but we're just waay to lazy to think of another one just yet.] a group I'm in since the first sem of my first year in UP. A group of otakus, artists, gamers.. well, they're a weird bunch. not that I'm not weird, no? ^^;; anyways, because of them, my college life has been a blast~ well, the bad thing is, since my joining this group, I've become more lazy and my acads are slowly... uh... slipping away... I must work harder~ gambarimasu~ >.<

recent events:
-- feb fair:feb fair~ tanoshikatta~ we had some visitors at the time~ some members of rotschreck, namely: luciel [vocalist; tottemo kakkoi.. so bishie~], neil [guitarist; vanilla...? ^_^ didn't get bored when he came] and eine [guitarist; long hair desu~ ^^;;], ain shinji's[housemate] "uke" and shiro-san and yush-san~ [didn't get to talk to them much, I had classes at the time...]. ^__^ maybe I'd tell the story in a new post. :D
-- ongaku rave: ongaku~~ jrock~ bands performing~ and most of all fanservice~ [the most unforgettable part] hehehe~ I met shiro and yush-san here again, jeiro-san, ira-san [hime-sama~], ain again.... and rotschreck~ their performance were asteeeeg~ coool~ and stuff. again, I shall narrate the events in another post. [this one is getting too long.]

the net and chatting: well, honestly, I've been hooked on the net for years, and it's only recently that I've learned how to chat. It seems that this school year, I've been trying out so many new things.. and chatting's one of them. at first, I was only chatting with pam then she introduced to me dexiemon and alex-niichan. it was fun~ we did online games and stuff and chatted a lot... alex and pam even became.. [uh official na ba?] a couple[?] ^__^
Just recently, I was introduced to YM [yahoo messenger] by shinji~ and now, I'm chatting with the people I met from those recent events I just told ya about a li'l while ago... ^__^

this blog: it's already been awhile since I've started blogging but then, only a few comment... >.< I wanted to use this to make friends as well, but then it isn't so easy... but it's okay though.. maybe I just can't write good or something... T_T

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just recently, I received a text message from an old friend I haven't seen for more than a year~ [cheeeeeeee~~~ beeeeeeernsssss~~ >.<] I met them when I was still studying japanese... ^_^ and this coming friday, I'm gonna stay over their house!!! yaaaaaay~ too bad they don't go online much.... we could chat and do a lot of stuff online, ne? ^__^ kedo~ tanoshiimi~~ ^__^ I can't wait!!!!

weird thing: I suddenly had a craving for ice candy. XD

sesu~